|So much for that one|
I was rather annoyed about it at the time, but I scooped up the pieces and tossed them away, with barely a second thought. Well, it took this long for the second thought to ferment into something potent, into regret and sadness.
|Lexi at 5 month old|
You see, I only just realized I didn't just lose a silly, replaceable Christmas ornament. I lost a memory. Without this little glass globe to remind me of that time when Lexi handed it to me with a big I did it all by myself grin, I won't likely ever recall it again. Out of sight out of mind really works for me, unfortunately, all too well.
|Alexis holding Justin and Brandon on the couch|
Things we keep from bygone days, weeks and months remind us of when we got them, who gave them to us, where we were and possibly the scents and emotions of that particular moment in time. I just won't have that one particular keepsake to remind me of Alexis at five, when she still needed me.
|What is it, Mommy?|
I know I have many other things hiding here and there to remind me of times past, but I have to think of all those precious memories of my kids which I have completely forgotten. Oh, I remember some, but not all and I find that very sad.
That is the true hazard of Christmas. We don't always remember the good things nearly as well as we recall the bad things...like when I dropped that glass sphere and let it smash to smithereens.